Friday, June 20, 2008

Out of the Dark

Where have I been? Why did I quit writing? What happened?

I am still not sure.

I do know that last fall work became incredibly frustrating. I could see what needed doing and how to do it but was not allowed to make it happen. Why that was I can only speculate. I think it had nothing to with my gender but was more tied to the apathy of the company owners. Frustration led to depression, depression led to weight gain, a new job search led to more frustration, more depression and more weight gain. It was a self sustaining cycle.

The OH finally kicked me out of the cycle. There is never an acceptable time for that kind of behaviour and with our eldest's nuptials coming up, this was an especially unacceptable time for it. The kick was brutal but effective. I quit my job. I landed new work in an engineering function. The new job is a minor pay cut but for the first time in 6 years I look forward to going work every day. I am finally doing what I went to school 30 years ago to do, engineering.

As you can see from the picture, I have put on weight since the last profile picture was taken. The good news is it is -15 lbs from my peak last winter. I have another 15 to go before the wedding. I think I can make it *S*

Anyway, I am back. I really appreciate the notes I recieved from those concerned with my welfare. Thank You


Freewheel said...

Welcome back!!! I wondered where you went. Congrats on your new engineering position. And here's hoping you're back in the (bike) saddle soon.

anchovy said...

Finally embracing your inner nerd. Nice. Good to see you're hopeful, in good spirits and surrounded by folks who care enough to set you straight.

Lara said...

OMG you're back! Great to see you around again! I'm sure you can get off those 15 lbs.

Now if I could just figure out what I want to be when I grow up too... I think I'm caught in some of the same circle that you were.

sage said...

I'm a little late to welcome you back, but I hope you stick around! I've taken pay cuts for happiness and they always seem to work out! Good luck.

Anonymouse said...

Hmm... ok this was in June... shows how long its been since I have been around either *L*... (Chrissie btw)

The pic looks great... but i'm curious... when is the wedding and did you make those extra 15lbs go away? lol

Still riding your bike at all?